Neutrality.

Neutral emotions are the best.

If you have met me before, you’ll either like me or hate me. I won’t be surprised if you think I have pride - people mistake being an introvert for pride and whatnot.

Sincerely, I am a sweet person. I get misunderstood because a lot of the time, I’m not expressive. I don’t care to explain myself too, honestly. If I feel like a scenario, context or situation is going to inconvenience me, I’ll just disappear.

I’ve gotten ‘you’re acting weird, ‘you act logically’, ‘don’t you have emotions?’, etc., a lot of times. I think these comments are born from how I respond to these people. I won’t lie, I give very few cents about your emotions most times in a conversation. I’m sorry, this doesn’t mean I do not care but rather, I gauge whatever emotion you give and return the exact - your emotions won’t influence mine.

I happen to be sensitive to an extent. I’m insensitive in some scenarios too. I’m mostly an unserious fellow, I keep a straight face when I’m alone but smile in public. I decide what vibe I want whenever. Enough of these blabberings, I’ll talk about the topic.

Neutrality

In this context, it’s about emotions. Ah yes, my substack posts are mostly about emotions, I know.

As a younging, I used to be foolish and very emotional. I was literally babied throughout my life, but haha, life showed me pepper and, I grew to be neutral.

What does neutral emotion mean?

This is my own definition, thanks.

For me, it’s being able to decide the class of emotion you get and return. I decide what is a good, bad, sad, and happy emotion. I mostly do not show these emotions, stay neutral, stay hidden.

This has caused a break in many friendships and relationships. A couple of people think I don’t care ( I really don’t ) about their feelings and all those gymnastics. In reality, I only care for a very few set of people and I don’t hide it. It’s left for them to believe it or not, I do not really try to convince people anymore.

I found out I’ve been really happy for the past year since I decided to shut down most of my emotions and act neutrally. I know love is a feel-good emotion and is even much better than staying neutral. BUT BRETHREN, UNTIL THEN.

What brought about neutrality?

Man, I’ve had enough of people hehe! On a more serious note, I’ve been quite unlucky in a couple of things and I used to be unnecessarily stressed about things that made no sense at all.

In an attempt to control my thoughts and line of actions completely, I went neutral. This isn’t 100% necessary - you can control your thoughts as an emotional person. Although, this will be very hard.

Years back, words and actions used to get to me, I noticed every single thing a person does and decide whether to interact with such person or not. Now, I instead care less, and just reduce the closeness or relatability with such a person. I have no business with someone who wants to act funny.

Pros?

I’ve been living my life like the king that I am. I honestly feel relieved that I care less and don’t feel disappointed by people anymore. When people misbehave and choose to portray their funny acts, I just smile it off.

I also love that no matter how you try to blackmail me emotionally, you’ll fail. Only a few people can succeed - you’re not one sha.

Total control of my thought processes and emotions is one of the biggest pros for me. I mean, I’m in charge mf.

Cons?

Even action has consequences and such, staying neutral also has consequences too. I like my life as it is. Cause trouble, relax, proclaim love to the ones I love, watch animes and Yoruba movies, flex.

So the major con about this is that people tend to doubt my motives. I have witnessed this a lot of times, people tend to not believe me because I can ‘voluntarily’ shut down my emotions and choose to be neutral or not. That’s fine, you decide what to believe or think.

An example: when I tell people that I love them, they doubt it. Oho.